I thought I was having a major revelation last week, but I’m so indecisive I haven’t even been able to get my thoughts down. I have a post in my drafts that I just keep editing. So much has potentially changed in just a week. I’m such a weird mix of hopeful and discouraged. Everything is confusing.
Let’s be in a house of our own.
Let’s be done with school and working hard.
Let’s have a field of daffodills in the back of our yard.
Let’s be alone sometimes, once in a while, or maybe even more often.
Let’s have a sun room where you can knit and I can write.
Let’s not be working nights and weekends anymore.
Let’s be open to adventure and have the time to take it when it hits.
Let’s have memories of all the places we’ve travelled to.
Let’s be lovers in the spring so by winter we’ll have new mouths to feed.
Let’s be married and have pictures from our wedding on the walls.
Let’s have cats in the house, birds on the porch, and rabbits in the hutch.
Let’s be somewhere between young and beautiful and distinguished and experienced.
Let’s talk about all of our goals that we’ve already accomplished.
Let’s have dinner parties on friday nights, cuddle up on saturdays,
Let’s spend all day sunday in bed, unless there is brunch.
Definitely let us enjoy our family while it’s young,
But let’s also have pipe dreams of opening a cafe when we retire.
Let’s have a real life and not be just waiting anymore.
Camille LS • 2012
Everyone keeps saying “This is the year!” and “This year are going to be different!” but not me. Usually I am right on that bandwagon, the rush of something new, that feeling like you can do anything! That hope that maybe you’ll do all the things you keep saying you’re doing that you just haven’t had a reason to start yet…
But I don’t think this year is going to be my year, I’ve accepted that. Maybe it’ll be the year I start to figure out my plans… but it won’t be the year I make any of them happen. It won’t be the year anything really changes. I just have no idea what I’m even working towards anymore. I hope I figure something out, but it’s just been so confusing that I don’t feel like I’m gonna get there anytime soon.